Monday, February 11, 2013

New Year, New Life Chapter

I just realized that I actually missed this year's New Year moments due to one hell of preparation for my comprehensive exam to earn my bachelor's degree, and I have been busy ever since until last Saturday's graduation ceremony; this last event closed the semester while at the same time opened a new one. The realization came after I watched this movie called New Year's Eve (2011 film) on TV. Of course, 2012 is special to me. Lots of things happened, just like every year, but not each year I could say that lots of new things happened. There are too much of these new things, I'd say, and that is why a single post would not cover all of them. Instead, I guess it would be best to deliver them through individual post with a certain theme; a post which contains my ideas that surely came from the experiences I had in life, including those from 2012. For this post, I think it is better to talk about the future instead; focuses on what to do as another year has passed and a new chapter of life has begun. I would like to speak my mind this time not by my own words, because I found the words that have already existed, on which they would do it well:


"... before we pop the champagne and celebrate the New Year,
... stop and reflect on the year that has gone by.
... Remember both our triumphs and our missteps,
our promises made and broken. 
...The times we opened ourselves up to great adventure,
or close ourselves down for fear of getting hurt.
[be]cause that's what New Year's all about: getting another chance,
the chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, and to love more.
And stop worrying about what if and start embracing what will be. 
... Let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other.
And not just tonight, but all year long."
-Claire Morgan from "New Year's Eve"

When I remember the year 2012, I remember that:
I had things that I regret and I had things that made me proud of myself.
While I know I have people who love me and still keep them, I met new* people who care for me, and whom I also love and care about.
I hurt people and I felt guilty; I admitted my mistake and I apologized, while I realized forgiveness does not come easy. I was hurt and I tried my best to forgive.
I made a fool of myself and I felt shame; but I was glad there are people who understand and never look down on me because of that. When this happened to one of them, I tried my best to do the same.
I wanted to keep things as they are, but sometimes I have to let some of them go. I wanted change and to change, but some things can never be changed.
Painful memories will not fade, but sweet memories are the ones I will always remember and cherish as life goes on.

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